Kelthoran

reflections

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 08:20:08 GMT

And once again there is a huge gap between my posts. I guess I keep convincing myself that I’ve got better things to do than sit in front of my computer and do virtually nothing. Ah well… the things we do when we’re stressed huh? Seriously though, I don’t really know why I’m that stressed out. I’ve recently had two great chats with lord_shadows, the first one he mentioned in his most recent entry, and one since. On top of that, I’ve had free reign over my parent’s house for the last couple of days while they’re away, my heavily-suppressed-by-my-parents independent streak shining through strongly. I guess it’s that stereotype of “you have to be stressed because this is supposed to be the most important year of your life” having an effect on me. I’ve been trying to cast off all those types of conventions this year and stop being controlled by the consensus of the masses, but there are a couple of old habits that are dieing very, very hard. I guess it’s because it’s been drummed into me my entire life and as a result, there’s this little voice inside my head that keeps telling me not to take that first step in a different direction. I’m going to have to learn to hit the mute button on that voice from now on. Actually, just typing this journal entry out is making my stress float away…. *grins* I should really do this more often! Note to self… TYPE!!!

Oh, quick follow on from last entry, I got that English thing done on time, and pretty well I thought. Should be interesting to find out how I did.

Kelthoran the Ghost Wolf

that quiz that's going 'round

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 10:41:53 GMT

If people could fill this out, i'd be greatful *grins*

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...
1. Do we know each other outside of Live Journal?
2. Whats your philosophy on life?
3. Would you have my back in a fight?
4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
5. What is your favorite memory of us?
6. Would you give me a kidney?
7. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:
8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
9. Can we get together and make a cake?
10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?
11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you drive across country with me?
14. Do you think I'm attractive?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
18. Would you go on a date with me if i asked you?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Enter the Ghost

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 17:28:40 GMT

Hello everyone!!!

Yes, I know its been a long time between drinks and most people would have forgotten that I actually do have a LJ account, but at this point in time, I felt like I needed to revive this little outlet of anger, agony, angst, arrogance, aggravation, annoyance, or any other form of articulated alliteration that makes me sound like an absolute ass. What is the cause for this sudden compulsion to keep a journal you might ask? Well, it might have something to do with the fact that it is currently 3am in Australia – Central Standard Time mind you, and that I am still working on an English assignment that is due at the end of the week. Quite frankly, I needed a break from typing about books and films. So what do I go ahead and do? That’s right folks! MORE TYPING!!!! Get your head around that one! Anyway, point is, I need somewhere to voice my exponentially increasing discontent without causing a ruckus. i.e. I need somewhere to bitch about life without waking up everyone within a mile radius.
Ok, here’s a bit of background info to kick-start this rant. I’m in my final year of high school and over the next two weeks, everything and I mean EVERYTHING is due. English, Biology, Legal Studies, Physics, you name it, the teachers want to assess it. This English thing I’m working on, is a total of 10,000 words long. It’s a critical analysis of a novel by Lian Hearn called “Across the Nightingale Floor” and the film “The Last Samurai” I wont go into detail otherwise I’ll end up writing another bloody essay. Suffice to say, it’s big and it’s hard. I’ve got another 2 long term assignments to finish off and 4 tests next week…… F#%$!!!

Ok, not much of a rant, but at least I’ve got some of that tension worked out of my system. I’ll have to go for a longer jog than usual tomorrow to clear my head.

Oh, and you might notice that I’ve changed my fursona to a wolf…. A “Ghost Wolf” in fact. I know some people don’t get the whole “I need to change my fursona” thing so I’ll attempt to explain. I still love Felines. Always have, always will. But over the last couple of months, I’ve been doing a bit of soul searching, finding out exactly what being a fur means to me. I’ve found that my interactions with canines, specifically our family dog, a German Shepherd, are more natural. I can connect on a spiritual level to canines and simply spending time in the company of one gives me a feeling of companionship and fulfillment. I did experience this sensation with cats, but not on the same scale. When I’m with canines, I quite literally feel like one of them. I’ve found that every now and then I am taken by these urges to growl at things and people who annoy me, to howl when I’m upset, to cuddle up with my Sheppy when I feel like I need company. And the sight of a full moon, well…… it’s all I can do to stop myself from just letting out a long and invigorating howl. When I was a tiger, none of this happened, no urges, no compulsions. Looking back, it just doesn’t suit me. I’ve always been a pack animal. I love the company of others. I work best in a team rather than on my own. Sure I get the “lone wolf” syndrome every now and then but really…who doesn’t like a bit of space? As for why did I choose wolves over any other specific canine? Well… they’re the biggest, the baddest and the best damned looking canines out of the lot. Well… in my opinion that is. What's more, there are the most metaphors and analogies accociated with wolves. if you dont know what that means then i'll have to throw you to the wolves.... *groan* sorry, shocking example.
The “Ghost Wolf” variation came directly from this ability I seem to have. I can simply fit into a group without people noticing, as if I wasn’t really there. But when I want to be heard, it’s as if I’ve always been there contributing. People don’t notice me unless I want them too; hence “Ghost”…… a valuable trait indeed.

Well, that wraps up my resurrection…… Please excuse me while I go and apply ice to my paws… this typing is killing me!!!

Kelthoran the Ghost Wolf

The bounce-back

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 12:20:38 GMT

Allright, i'm officially over the Socceroos losing to Italy. It took a while but i'm alright now. i was still sulking about while everyone else had forgotten it had happened and i realised i should get on with things too. There are better and more important things in life to get depressed over (though there aren't many out there). For instance, my girlfriend has been on a school Outdoor Education hike/camp thing, FOR AN ENTIRE BLOODY WEEK!!! *sigh* she gets back tomorrow but i'm missing her like hell. i cant wait to hold her again, i've been terribly lonely all week. ah well, i guess we'll catch up over the weekend and show each other EXACTLY how much we missed each other, *grins* As they say, "absense makes the heart grow fonder" For people like MattLion and Eagle...well...I think they must be very fond of each other by now! Nothing would make me happier than hearing that those two finally met face to face.

Anyway, i'm rambling again!
One thing i have to mention, is that the second new series of "Doctor Who" is coming out soon Down-under! I've seen the first episode on one of my school friend's laptop and.....OMG!!!!! WOOOO!!! it's bloody brilliant!!! not only is the writing and special effects much better than the old stuff but the new Doctor... *drool* i know i'm usually pretty straight with the occational bi tendancy but David Tennant...... there's just no resisting! The new Doc rocks my socks!!! He's been in a BBC production of Casanova as the title role as well....and for good reason!!! He's just so.......damn sexy!!! i cant help it! just look!
http://i36.photobucket.com/albums/e40/Kelthoran/tennant.jpg
http://i36.photobucket.com/albums/e40/Kelthoran/tenth-doctor-who.jpg
It's the suit as well, pinstripes and a brown trenchcoat and awesome shoes too!!!... that is the best look any doctor has ever had! it even beats Tom Baker's 3 metre long scarf! sorry i'm i'm nerding anyone out but COME ON! how can you not love that guy!?! it's not just the looks, but the way he acts... he's too good!

Anyway, i'll shut up now

Kelthoran the "turned on by David Tennant" Tiger

NOOOOOOO!!!!!! bloody penalty shot!!!

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 11:27:19 GMT

Well, all these weeks of cheering and chanting SOCCEROO!!! SOCCEROO!!! are over. Italy won on a “penalty” in the last bloody minute of play. Please allow me to express my humble opinion…... NO WAY IN THE DEPTHS OF HELL WAS THAT A BLOODY PENALTY!!!!!!!!!
Our player was lying on the ground, facing the wrong way from a previous tackle and the Italian trips over him by mistake! MISTAKE DAMN YOU!!! I tell you there’s a conspiracy against the smaller football nations in the world cup. Just look at the Australia vs Croatia match. A Croatian player was given 2 yellows then a red card and sent off by the referee, the player then proceeded to continue playing and no one did a bloody thing about it! I mean come on!!! If you’re going to advantage the other teams then at least try and cover it up!
*sigh* I guess I could complain for forever and a day about the football. The losing team always finds some way to fault the other team or the referee decisions. It just so happens that the referee was at fault this time but that’s not the point. Regardless of the result, it was a bloody good game. Both sides were evenly matched on both defense and offence, we played a possessive game and set up our attacks carefully while the Italians took a quicker approach and tried to breach out defenses with one or two key players. Interesting and entertaining game of football. It had the entire nocturnal Australian nation on the edge of our seats (it was broadcast on TV at 1am).

Australia today is a country in mourning. At school nobody talked much. There was the occasional nod of acknowledgement and the mumbling of “bloody referees” under everyone’s breath. The weather isn’t helping much where I am. Overcast and dreary, the odd shower here and there. It’s almost like England really. Everyone and everything is gloomy. The usual cheerful supermarket and shop staff look down and scowl, the customers doing the same. I went into my usual busy and bustling Borders book store/café to get my dad a birthday present this morning before school and the checkout chick, who normally gives me a warm smile of recognition and a “hi Lach” upon serving me just said flatly, “sucks about the soccer huh?” and didn’t look up.

I guess we’ll get over it. We’ve always got next world cup to make an even better impression. We were the “dark horses” of the Tournament after all. No body expected us to do well, let alone get into the second round. Downside is we’ve lost Guus Hiddink as a coach and some of our best players will be a bit old and past it to play in 4 years time. I guess we’ll have to rely on new blood to sustain us then.

Oh and Darken, sorry I didn’t get back to you after the match, I was pretty depressed. I needed to sleep as well. Wish you were here man, or that I was over there. I think both of us need some comfort.

Kelthoran the manically depressed Tiger

GO THE SOCCEROOS!!! oh yeah, and other stuff too

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 12:01:36 GMT

First and foremost……AUSTRALIA IS IN THE NEXT ROUND OF THE WORLD CUP !!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! YEAH!!!! TAKE THAT USA!!!
“Just there to make up the numbers” BAH!!! Excuse me? Who got knocked out? Yeeeeeeeeeeah! You did! WOOOOO!!!
GO AUSTRALIA!!!!

(ahem) sorry, just a little football crazy. We Aussies get really worked up about our sport. No offence to any Americans reading this, you just cant say something like that and get knocked out. It’s the old maxim of “don’t count your chickens before they’ve hatched.”

Anyway, off of football, even though its all I can think about (its only a couple of hours until the Australia vs Italy match kickoff)
I’ve had a bit of a reprieve from the usual mountains of school work. Apparently, since all of the teachers for my subjects put the end of term tests within 4 days of each other (bastards), there are no tests for another 2 weeks. Then there’s the end of semester break and mid year exams as soon as we go back. That means colossal amounts of study over what’s supposed to be a “holiday”.

On a good note, my brother has finished exams and is of on a school camp for a week. That translates to……*crickets chirping*……… that’s right, silence. Thank all the powers that be! He’s finally gone! Now I can actually do something productive instead of having to worry about him all of the time. Personally, I hate being the big brother. Everyone keeps saying, “just let him do what he wants,” and, “don’t worry about him,” And then subconsciously, they expect me to look after him. They say one thing and mean the complete opposite! Bloody hell it pisses me off! I know I cant do anything about it but I just don’t like being caught in the middle of anything, family feuds or otherwise.
Anyway, on a GOOD note, I think I finally got through to by electronic banking and should be up with paypal before the end of the week. Gilligan, watch out! Commissions coming your way soon!

Kelthoran the “all revved up with no place to go” Tiger

P.S. GO THE SOCCEROOS!!!

the full on-ness of life

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 07:52:34 GMT

And yes, on-ness is a word. it might not be listed in the dictionary but it's real.

Anyway, i know it's been a long time between drinks for this journal but it is simply because i've been having a really rough time recently. i just havnt had time to write anything. with mid year exams looming and all of the teachers conspiring with each other to have all of our regular tests within three days, keeping this journal has been the last thing i've been worrying about.
on top of my academic demands, i've been having a bit of trouble at home as well. my brother is really giving my family the shits. he has his mid term exams at the moment and is just being plain difficult about it. we try to help him to study and he keeps saying, "I cant!" or "I dont know how!" when we try to show him study techniques he tells us that "i cant do it like that, it doesnt work!" i cant tell you, the collective groaning of my parents and i would have drowned out a Red Hot Chili Peppers concert. it's gotten to the point where i just cant be stuffed helping him anymore. he acts as if he wants my help but refused it when offered. it's driving all of us insane. however, despite all of the shouting matches, he seems to be doing well in the exams. god only knows how. I could bitch on about my brother for a full half hour but i'm not going to bore you to pieces.

Amid all of the chaos of my life at the moment, there is one last bastion of hope to pull me through it……exercise. I know it sounds weird, but there is nothing more satisfying than flogging yourself half to death on a bike or out on a run. You can call me an adrenaline junkie if you want but trust me, it helps. Exercise can clear your head of any irrational thoughts, make you focus on the task at hand and ignore the turmoil around you. Sure you might feel stuffed beyond comprehension afterwards but you know that it’s not only doing your body a world of good, but your mind as well. Having the ability to do something that provides a temporary escape from the demands of reality is invaluable. There are other means as well, i.e. drugs, alcohol, a “cant be screwed with life” attitude, but I would never resort to them, I’m just not that kind of person. I’ve seen too many friends and just people in general mess their lives up because they take the easy way out of things. You’ve got to find a way to be productive in your leisure, not destructive.

Oh, I think I might take Gilligan up on that commission offer, just as soon as I can get my internet banking to work!!!
Gilligan, if you’re reading this, I’ll send you an email as soon as I have some money in my paypal account. I’ve been going over your work and let me tell you, you are good. Damn good. I think you’ll have your work cut out for you though when I send you the details for this one!

Cheerio!

Kelthoran the “more tired than a marathon runner at the finish line” Tiger

Better late than never

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 04:53:17 GMT

To whom it may concern...

nah, that sounds way too impersonal...

G'day there folks!

I really should have started my own journal sooner seeing as i've been lurking around other people's pages for a while now and just observing. Better late then never i guess.
Seeing as this is my first entry on LJ, i have absolutely no idea what i should be writing here. i guess a little about myself would be in order so here goes...

I'm an 18 year old guy who's still in school. final year of high school and all that. year 12 for any Aussies viewing the page (i.e. i'm one too). as my avatar suggests, i like tigers, as in REALLY like tigers. i guess you could call me a furry, but i dont have a suit or anything. it's more of a mental and spiritual thing. then again, try and find a typical furry, i can tell you right now you wont find one. we're all different. i've kinda got a thing for wolves as well but that's another story... one to do with my pet German Shepherd.

i'm a bit of a self confessed nerd, i'm into sci-fi shows and fantasy books and all that kinda thing. it's a bit of a contradiction though as i love my sports and consider myself *ahem* "physically active". Prime example: i just finished watching an episode of Stargate Atlantis for the 5th time and as soon as i finish writing this, i'm going on a 3 hour bike ride through the hills.

I'm a good friend of Lord-Shadows so any friend of his is a friend of mine... if you'll let me be of course... lol! He was the one who persuaded me to start up a journal to stay in contact with the outside world. currently my internet connection is being monitored by this IT guy from my parent's work so i dont A. use MSN and B. access any *ahem* questionable sites. therefore regular email and this journal are my last bastions of communication.

anyway, i think that's enough for now... the Adelaide hills await...

Cheerio!

Kelthoran the Tiger